Sometimes people get stuck in a rut. The type of run that consumes your life and you can't find the end of the tunnel. This last school year I felt like I was in a rut. I lost the purpose in my life. My relationship with God became stagnant, I wasn't interested in my major anymore, and I hardly ever felt at peace about anything. I felt like complaining more often than rejoicing. I would try to change my attitude but I kept falling deeper and deeper into a rut. One thing kept me going...CHANGE was coming. I was going to live in NYC for the summer to nanny. Before I came I spent a lot of time in prayer. I was scared. I knew I would be put in situations that I have never been in before. I have never been far away from home for more than a couple weeks. I would have to find a new summer church family. I would have to be extra responsible financially. I would have to make decisions that I wouldn't later regret. I was going to have to learn to become independent. I was going to grow--and sometimes growing is painful.
Now that I am here I am not only finding things out about myself, but fear doesn't seem to have such a strong hold on my life anymore. I feel like I am free to do anything--and I will succeed at it. I feel like I am Discovering ME. And I like it. As I continue my summer here I want to continue to Discover ME. I want to Discover who I am in Christ. Discover the way I want to live. Discover my strengths, my weaknesses. Discover my passions, and the things I am not so passionate about. I want to discover that fear doesn't have to hold me back. Discover that I can overcome my insecurities. I want to discover that I can do whatever I want to do and be whatever I want to be. I want to Discover ME.
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